Healing

Hey Everyone!

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, life has been really crazy! I hope you had a great Thanksgiving! I will try to update more often now that life is slowing down a bit. Merry Christmas!



Something that has been bothering me is if you ever go up for prayer and you aren't healed people will say things that can honestly get you down. I went forward for prayer one time and obviously I wasn't healed and a lady told me the reason I wasn't healed was because I didn't have faith in God. Wrong! If I didn't have enough faith then, and I haven't been healed now how much faith do I have to have. I also have people say don't claim what you have. Well if I don't acknowledge that there is a need how can He meet it? Some people tell you to stop taking medicine. Some even say they don't need medicine because they already have been healed. If you have lets say asthma and you stop using your inhaler that could be a very bad thing. Let me explain something to you. God gave us medicine to help us not to hurt us. He designed it to help our bodies function better. Taking medicine is not a bad thing. Saying you have been healed is not a bad thing, but stopping what helps you breathe or live a normal everyday life, yeah that's bad.
Recently I went to youth convention and we talked about Jacob wrestling with the angel and how he gave him a new name. Then they gave us a chance to re-name ourselves to something like blessed or beautiful. We each got a name tag that had our new name. When I got ready to write my name I honestly didn't know what to put. But someone said that I should put healed and beautiful. I didn't swell for the rest of the trip and even when I got home I still wasn't swelling. I honestly thought God had healed me and I would be normal again. but within 20 minutes I started swelling. I can not fully explain the anger that I felt because I have never had a time where I truly believed that God had healed me. I got so angry at God because I thought it was my turn. Then it made me realize when will it be my turn. That Sunday we prayed for healing in like 10 peoples bodies. There I stood with my own need praying for other people to be healed. I forgot who was in control. I forgot to be patient for a healing. I forgot all of the things I had told people that read this blog. I told a friend of mine what I was going through and it was so weird because she told every thing I have written on here about. She doesn't even follow my blog. I am so amazed by God and the the ways he uses people to speak into your life.So to conclude my long story let me encourage you in this. Your going to get tired of going forward for prayer and not being healed. But sometimes you need that time in the alter. I have had God speak into my life when I was up there praying for a healing. Don't stop going up for prayer just because you think people will get tired of praying for you. They won't. Another thing is your going to get tired of not being the one who is healed. Your going to get tired of being the strong person who has to live with this everyday. Believe me, I get tired of being the kid that carries this on my shoulders. Being strong putting on a smiling face every time someone asks you how you are when really your knee is throbbing or your are swelling because the room is cold. It can get boring fast. Let me say it is okay to get tired. Let me say that again. IT IS OKAY TO GET TIRED. People will accept you for who you are and if sometimes you don't feel like being the best person that night it's okay. We all get tired, we all need a break every once in a while. It's called being a human. We can not run around like a super hero and not get tired. Sometimes people get tired of waiting for a healing. Please know that God does have a healing in store for you. Please know that God does have a healing for you no matter what. I know that whether I am healed on earth there is a healing waiting for me in Heaven. So I can say I am on my way to a healing because I am.

The other night I was reading my Bible when this verse pops into my head.

Genesis 8:8-12
8 Then he sent out a dove to see if the water had receded from the surface of the ground. 9 But the dove could find no place to set its feet because there was water over all the surface of the earth; so it returned to Noah in the ark. He reached out his hand and took the dove and brought it back to himself in the ark. 10 He waited seven more days and again sent out the dove from the ark. 11 When the dove returned to him in the evening, there in its beak was a freshly plucked olive leaf! Then Noah knew that the water had receded from the earth. 12 He waited seven more days and sent the dove out again, but this time it did not return to him.

I view people with illness as modern day Noah's. When I go forward for prayer its like I am sending out my own white dove to see if it can find normal healed ground. Noah didn't get it right away. It took several tries before the bird didn't come back. Praying for a healing is like this. He tried like 3 times, and they weren't back to back either. It was seven days before he tried again. He also waited 40 days and nights before he even started sending the dove out. We are like Noah as we are waiting for our day of dry ground when the bird does not return. When it will be safe to leave Doctor Ray behind and carry on my life without worry or fear.

Everyday is one step closer to healing! My day of dry ground is coming!

Brooke