Why Can't I Be Normal?

Sometimes when you have medical problems you wish just for a day you could be normal. We know we can't but we still wish we could. Other times you wish other people could live with it just for a day then see if they understand. Truth is, well at least for me, I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Most of my friends say that God doesn't give hard things to weak people, but rather to strong people who He can trust. If that's true sometimes I wish I could be weak.

The problem I run into is people don't understand when I tell them my problem. They either look like I have a third eye or back away thinking I'm contagious. Other times they look like they understand or try to and really don't. I was talking to a friend of mine who goes through a lot of the same things I go through if not more. She said just for once she wishes she could be normal. It was then I realize what is normal for me? A good day is no knee pain or swelling. I have a few of those not often. But I think if I was normal for one day I wouldn't know what to do with myself. There is a book and a saying that goes all around the world that says "Normal is just a setting on your dryer" I kinda believe it. If normal doesn't exist then how can we have a normal day? God created each of us different in our own way so a normal day is different for everyone.

I hate that I'm not normal like everyone else. I wish some days I could get out of the van and leave my bulging purse that holds an epipen and blanket. Where I don't have to get out of the pool every five minutes. But God doesn't want me to be normal right now. I'm different because its my purpose. I'm glad I'm not normal it can't be as much fun.
I like being me but I wish you could understand fully. Not so you will feel sorry for me, but just to let you understand a day in the life off a weird person.

If you do deal with medical problems daily I encourage you keep your chin up some days are better than others. My favorite saying is "keep your chin up because then you can't put your head down." God has a purpose for it all.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11